Hello all, and happy Friday!
I am going to write a post that is pretty personal for me. A question that has been on my mind for awhile now.
Where do I belong?
Do you ever get that feeling? Where you feel like no matter who you are around or with, you just don’t belong anywhere? Even around friends I’ve known for years from high school or new friends from work, I just feel like I don’t belong anywhere. And let me tell you, it’s a sucky feeling to feel.
It makes me wonder why I feel this way. Why suddenly do I feel like I’ve outgrown everything? I haven’t quite found that answer yet, but I have been personally working on myself to get over some things and through some things that I feel like people just wouldn’t understand.
Getting over a girl who I was in love with for almost five years, and getting over losing some friendships because of stupid reasons. We all have our issues in life to get through, and whether we do it with someone or alone, it’s not easier or harder one way or the other. Don’t let anyone tell you that. It is nice to have people there for you in case you need some support, but to those like me who think it’s best to try and fly solo, that’s okay, too.
Now don’t get me wrong. I love the friends that I have, and I love where I am at in life. I have finally gotten to a point where I am in my own apartment, and I only have to abide by my rules. That’s a great place in life, and maybe that’s my place. Maybe that is where I belong. One thing I have learned in life, is happiness isn’t just because you have a lot of people in your life. I’m learning maybe my happiness is just being alone. Where I know I can’t be hurt, or stabbed in the back.
I am sorry to anyone this post may have offended, as that is not my intention. You have seen my thought process in this post, and while I haven’t gotten it all figured out, I think I will be okay. 🙂